I dunnoe wat im suppose to freaking do with my life right about now. Future's bleak!? I dunnoe! Fuck! I've never been this confused and in dillema. Parents not giving much thought into it. And im confused at to what my next step should be. Gaaaaah. Fuck this course!? Or get on a plane n keep fucking in this course real hard! I wanna get a degree a.s.a.p & get it done n over with so that i can take care of them while earning a good paying job. Arghhhh. Now. Im stuck with the choices that i have to make before continuing with my plans. Im ranting nonsense here... urgh.

Im just tired of fighting/quarelling with them about my future but obviously they have a damn big part to play in it. i feel like transfering n doing another major where my skills can fucking be put to goooood use. Seriously. Dammit! Why am i even shedding this unwanted tears! Foolish. In 5yrs time i may not be where i wanna be. But! I fucking hope that life's gonna take an even better turn. After the working and studying decision that imma make in a few months time. Seriously im just ranting watever is bothering me.

And it doesnt need to make sense. Imma reflect and make a freakingly bloodily good decision soon about my "awesome" life. :/