Im not a bluray virgin! LoL! But. I do not see any difference. Hahahaaaa! Oh wells. Un-virgination Happened with amanda & khalis. Teheee. =P

Im sober now.
Soo ytd posts should not affect me in any ways!
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Cherish yesterday Dream Tomorrow Live today

I love you
i still do
<3

You make me feel/think/care like crazy you know. I would wanna make up for my mistake. But i bet its too late now. Only god knows how i feel. ;'(

Nothing related to previous post. Hahahaaaa. Still ranting away like nobody's business. ;)

We don't talk no more. But you'll always be my 1st no matter what. I felt loved like nothing compared to others... commitment issues were the exact reason for everything. Egoistic/Foolish me. Not thinking bout you everyday is a TOTAL lie. Coz there's pieces of you lying around my bubble of comfort. Literally. Life happened but this bubbleofcomfort ain't changing/moving on. Those things will still be around till whatever drastic changes in my life should ever take place.

Wait! To much info! Hmms. i want a pet hamster and naming him hamtaro would be ideal. At least patrick will have a friend! LoL! Or else he'll be lying around in bed dozing off every single minute of the day! ;P

Im done ranting for tonight. Emotionally/physically drained. Grrrr. Tmr's gonna be a long day. God give me strength.

I wont judge. I'll never judge. But i'll observe. Somebody taught me. Judging wont come to any good. Put the negatives n embrace the fucking positive energy that has been pushed away by all that negativity.

I got trust issues. Commitment issues. Relationship issues. Soooo Sue me. At least i have this blessing of making friends THAT easily. ;) thank you god. Putting past aside n the present to uphold.

Sometimes i wished i had a bit of amnesia issue with that small period of time before sitting for O's. Seriously. Am i still broken inside? Nah. Piecing it back. But. Everytime i think of that mistake that i made. It just drives me to loonylandoftheuniverse. I dun think u noe that u broke me up to smithereen's huh. Well. Karma's a BITCH. Watch out for her!

Wait sidetracked. Hahahaaa. Im all gooood now. Smiling. Enthusiastic. Awesomely whole and sane. LoL! Surrounded by a bubble of great friends n foes. Well. No foes but maybee someone hates me secretly. LoL! I wouldnt noe. ;) whatever.

No judging people! Once a mistake is made. Learn. Do not repeat. Doesn't come to any goooooood. ;)

Im not making sense.
I just wanna rant. ;>

I dunnoe wat im suppose to freaking do with my life right about now. Future's bleak!? I dunnoe! Fuck! I've never been this confused and in dillema. Parents not giving much thought into it. And im confused at to what my next step should be. Gaaaaah. Fuck this course!? Or get on a plane n keep fucking in this course real hard! I wanna get a degree a.s.a.p & get it done n over with so that i can take care of them while earning a good paying job. Arghhhh. Now. Im stuck with the choices that i have to make before continuing with my plans. Im ranting nonsense here... urgh.

Im just tired of fighting/quarelling with them about my future but obviously they have a damn big part to play in it. i feel like transfering n doing another major where my skills can fucking be put to goooood use. Seriously. Dammit! Why am i even shedding this unwanted tears! Foolish. In 5yrs time i may not be where i wanna be. But! I fucking hope that life's gonna take an even better turn. After the working and studying decision that imma make in a few months time. Seriously im just ranting watever is bothering me.

And it doesnt need to make sense. Imma reflect and make a freakingly bloodily good decision soon about my "awesome" life. :/

What's done. Is done.

Seriously! This sucks! Biggg tyme! ;( go away ulcer at throat.

Officially sick. Dammit. The throat aint getting any better! Nose aint getting any drier n coughing aint getting any lesser. I shall coop myself up at home, be a good girl... n REST. Gaaaah. *2.days.tops.please.*

My elbow area swollen! Redddd.... grrrrr. The excrutiation! Arghhhh. Should never have carried tht back tht wayyyy....

Its the time of the month.... Grrrr. NotSoGood.

he'samajorLOSERRR... teheee. Maybe he's born with it maybe its Genes-natic. ;)

BookWorm mode.